Yep, it’s raining!
And it’s supposed to keep raining for a couple of days more.
While not going crazy over what we cannot change, it is quite nice to see gray, wetness.
Until it’s not so nice anymore… inevitable as well.
My roses are all mixed up about what time it is. Time to sleep or time to wake… ?
There have been freezing nights and days of 80 degrees.
I “hope” they stay asleep as I am not ready to take on my garden just yet.
As some of my “old”-faithful readers know, I am far from the peaceful, sane, friendly, loving woman you might presume, given what you read/see here.
I am, in fact, a crazy woman with “multi-faceted” moods to match.
I’ve been blessed with all kinds of nutty!
We won’t talk about the body that isn’t at all what it might be, given the supplements I consume, the lifestyle I live, the reasonably decent diet. Blah blah.
I’ve been absent because I haven’t had anything to say.
Life hasn’t been going well.
I don’t make myself be someone I’m not and if I’m not feeling like writing, sharing, whatever… I don’t.
I don’t go online at all.
Many carry their phones (and use them) everywhere, quite appalling most of the time.
They keep tablets handy that connect to the lovely world out there.
Apparently few want to feel separate.
I am of the belief that separation is inevitable.
That perverse connectivity only breeds a false sense of belonging.
With that comes perhaps a false sense of security?
Falseness of any kind, illusion of any kind, makes me wiggly.
Uncomfortable beneath my skin.
I learned years ago to NEVER share anything online I might regret.
I learned the hard way not because someone advised me to beware.
Just try to erase that ill-timed post, tweet, comment, no?
If I’m in a dark place, the last thing I do is write a blog post.
I know if I do, I am going to publish it only to pull it.
I doubt that explains much. That’s OK… I think it explains enough.
I will return when I’m in a better place than I currently am.
That could be later today. Or never again.
Impermanence is a fact.
At least it is in my world.